I know I haven't blogged in a long time. This morning I had an intense dream and I had to write a letter to my cousin Jennifer. Here is my letter to her.
"Hey, I'm writing this to tell you something. Today I woke up from my bed in a crying fit. I mean full on crying. I cried because I really missed your Dad, and I cried for you. Even as I'm writing this I'm still crying. I miss your father terribly, he never judged me and he was my favorite. Every memory I have I cherish them. As for you, well in my dream I saw your pain. All the pain that I know you have been through and the pain I can't even imagine. With all these things that occur in your life your heart is still beautiful. You continue where many would have given up. I love you my cousin and I have not forgotten you. I have no ulterior motives and to be honest I don't understand why I'm writing this to you but something inside me tells me I must. I cried for you not because for pity but out of inspiration and and yes empathy. Just know "Buddah" got your back, I love you."
My uncle was great, though he had his flaws. I miss him so much. My cousin Jennifer has been through so much. I love her too. And for those wondering I stopped crying at the exact moment I hit send on that letter. I still don't why I wrote this or even why I shared this with you guys. My gut just told to do it. And now my gut is telling me it's breakfast time. Later y'all
R.I.P. Tio Johnny. I miss you. "Sabor con Salsa"